Don't know how many times this song already played in my playlist ... ^_^
But I promise , in my 'day' i will sing this song - hihihihihihihi -

Waiting the 'man' who will play this song with me ^_*

Menyerah , artinya kalah.
Bertekuk lutut dan bersedih , artinya tidak akan ada jalan keluar.

Yang ada hanya harapan ....
Sampai habis waktu ku ....
Aku akan berharap ....

Berdoa, berharap, mengerjakan dan menyerahkan nya ke Dia.

Amin

It's time to let you go; it's time to say Goodbye
No more excuses; no more tears to cry
There's been so many changes; I was so confused
All along you were the one; all the time I never knew.
I want you to be happy; you're my best friend
But its so hard to let you go now; all that could have been
I'll always have the memories; she'll always have you
Fate has a way of changing; just when you don't want it to
Throw away the chains; Let love find a way
Till love comes again, I'll be OK!

Life passes so quickly, you've got to take the time
Or you'll miss what really matters, you'll miss all the signs
I've spent my life searching, for what was always there,
Sometimes it will be too late, sometimes it won't be fair.
Throw away the chains, Let love fly away
Till love comes again, I'll be OK!

I won't give up... I won't give in...
I can't re-create what just might have been,
I know that my heart will find love again
Now is the time to return....
Throw away the chains, Let love find a way
Till love comes again, I'll be OK!
Can't go on forever, baby; I can't go on forever, baby...
Can't go on forever, baby... yeah...; I'll be OK

Once upon a time, there was an island where all the feelings lived. HAPPINESS, SADNESS, KNOWLEDGE and all others including LOVE.
*
One day, it was announced to all the feelings that the island would sink. So, they all prepared their boats and left.
*
LOVE was the only one who stayed because he had no boat. When the island started sinking, LOVE decided to ask for help. RICHNESS, can you take me with you? But RICHNESS answered, "No, I can't. There is a lot of gold and silver in my boat. There is no place for you here."
*
LOVE decided to ask VANITY. "VANITY, please help me". But VANITY answered, "I can't help you, LOVE. You are all wet and will probably damage my boat." SADNESS was close by and so LOVE ask for help, "SADNESS, let me go with you." But SADNESS answered, "Oh! LOVE, I am so sad and prefer to be alone."
*
HAPPINESS passed by and LOVE called her. But HAPPINESS was happy by herself that she did not listen to LOVE.
*
Suddenly, there was a voice......"Come LOVE...I will take you with me...."It was an ELDER..LOVE was so happy that he forgot even to ask for his name. When they arrived on a dry land, the elder simply went off on his way. LOVE asked KNOWLEDGE, another ELDER, "who was that kind elder who helped me? "That was TIME, answered KNOWLEDGE.
*
TIME? asked LOVE..but why would TIME help me? LOVE continued...Because only TIME is capable of understanding how great LOVE is, answered KNOWLEDGE.


Satu kata yang bisa terucap dari bibirku adalah....
TRIMA KASIH TUHAN ENGKAU BAIK SANGAT BAIK ...
4 bulan terakhir aku sudah menghabiskan waktu ku untuk berjuang melawan semua pencobaan yang diperkenan kan menghampiri hidupku.

Rasanya sudah tidak bisa terucap dan terkata katakan lagi.
Being from something to be nothing...
From have anything to have nothing ...
Tapi satu yang aku tahu bahwa Tuhan tidak pernah tidur.
Aku percaya, akan selalu ada pelangi setelah hujan berakhir :)
Aku percaya, Tuhan mengijinkan semuanya terjadi dalam hidupku karena dia tahu aku mampu untuk melaluinya dan bersama Nya.

Mulai dari infeksi kelenjar limpha, DBD, Saraf Kejepit, Tulang persambungan antara kaki dan paha bergeser posisinya sampai diputusin ma pacar.
Hihihihihi.....

How it feels .... hurt!
But that's life ....
Mulut ku hanya sanggup berkata 'Thank you Jesus'

Great is Thy faithfulness
Great is Thy faithfullness
Morning by morning new mercies I see
All I have needed Thy hand hath provided
Great is Thy faithfulness, Lord unto me.

Ugh...
Apa aku yang terlalu egois,
Apa aku yang terlalu sensitive,
Apa aku yang tidak pernah mau mendengarkan,
Apa aku yang terlalu manja,
Apa aku yang terlalu menuntut,
Atau apa aku yang tidak pernah mau mengerti...

Aku tak tahu...

Ada saat dimana, aku merasa kesepian, aku ingin dia ada...
Tapi pasti tidak akan pernah bisa...
Ada saat dimana aku ingin benar-benar dimanja...
Dia pun tak akan pernah ada...
Ada saat dimana, aku benar-benar menahan isak tangis kesakitan ku...
Aku melihat lagi, maka dia tak pernah ada...

Aku merasa dia begitu dekat tapi sangat jauh, tinggi dan megah diatas sana,
tak tergapai...
dan aku pun semakin tenggelam...
Aku kembali ke dalam cangkangku...
Dingin, sendiri dan gelap...

Jiwa yang keropos dengan rintihan beban hidup yang tak pernah berhenti mendera.
Aku tak pernah meminta untuk mendapatkan semua ini,
Aku tak pernah meminta untuk menjalani semua ini,
Aku juga tak pernah menjadikan semua ini pembenaran,tapi pembelajaran untuk lebih mengenal dan melihat lebih dekat.
Dan, Aku juga tak pernah meminta mu untuk menanggung semua kesakitan yang setiap hari harus aku terima.

Aku berjanji.
Aku tidak akan pernah meminta apapun lagi.
Datang lah bila ingin datang, dan pergilah bila kau ingin pergi.
Hidup dan berbahagialah...

Yang aku tahu, aku hanya meminta satu kesempatan,
untuk kau memalingkan wajahmu dan melihatku...

Lalu, aku melepasmu...